The next step

After stating here the need to be more serious in the new year, I’ve only discovered just how much I truly need God -a desperation that stems from the fact that if I am not with Him I can’t do anything, not what I set my mind to do, nor what I hope he has planned for me.

In my bout with disciplining myself (don’t think: monk or nun or the like), it has lead to me now reviewing a step that seems only inevitable to take. Soon after I got back to uni and it’s less comfy and merry ways, a friend sent a short recording of a message by a pastor. With abit more thinking and some reading I am considering it, although not going into specifics.

It is however, timely. It is appropriate, considering I need to realize my maturing not just in worldly numbers but spiritually, the growth pangs of adolescence and rebellion years of teenagehood seem…dusty. I don’t know, but I know it’s necessary to step closer to God and see where He’s really steering me. Not to divert from the prime reason being the complete and utter need to breakthrough from a long-standing condition, all these are in line with the plan.

It is about faith. Faithful, keeping loyal and persevering is one thing. Having faith, taking faith, recently has been inspiring me to think that its a long and a leap. It’s a trust and a kick forward. It’s not just staying faithfully the same, it’s pursuing in faith as well.
Many years of asking and waiting grew fear that maybe some things are far too big to risk asking for, to risk my faith for if I did ask. But no, it’s time and appropriate time to take faith.

It is a good, or rather, right time in my life for this.
If correlating to God’s will, I hope I can take a firm step forward.

 

To faith.

lei